Haix.. Thing tat u expected to happen just dun seems to be happening at all.. No matter how much u try, how much u wish, how much u pray and hope for.... JUST nv success at all.. Wad we really need is JUST miracle? or JUST give up? it just simply left 2 choices for me now.. it's been a pretty long time, being day and night without fail trying real hard just to have tat LITTLE happiness that i wish for, but just...... izzit tat hard to be granted? everyday i just look upon tat slim little chance whenever i made tat effort to try.. though there were no outcome but i still stand on.. i pray everyday for that very very one outcome but yet i'm unable to have it.. do i really need to move or touches the god heart before i have my little blessing or hope that i always wish to come true? On the other hand, do this world really have miracle? den when will be my that miracle for me after my 19years in the earth? everybody tells me abt miracle and some even witness abt the real miracle that happen on them.. Is this wad god have given us? And if so, why just cant every of us have the happiness we want? so that no one is living in a miserable life..N they try real hard yet they fail and just make them suffering and feel terrible, hopeless and etc...

wee..

woo~~ finally i'm off to my holiday le.. lolx.. but i think holiday is kinda sian for me.. reason cos ALL my buddies are busy.. either they having studies or wad CCA thingy.. hai.. sian la.. therefore i think no fun at all la.. arbo, no night life at all.. meaning tonning outside.. watching movie out in the late night.. go play.. drink? sadded man.. wad ended more to sadness is tat among my buddies.. 1 more already getting himself to relationship.. meaning to say tat the chance of getting together will be lesser n lesser man.. How i wish i can get into relationship too =X how i wish i can begin loved.. =/

oh ya.. anybody out there got any jobs, PLEASE recommend me alright? i'll strongly appreciate tat kindness of u de.. =)

haix.. as i was walking in the middle of the dark path home just now.. i began and started to get emo.. I dunno y but just out of the sudden i feel so lonely and sad walking along tat path.. i started to think abt the past and things and deep thoughts starting to cross over my mind.. feeling rather down during tat veri veri first moment.. My mind just trying to search and puzzle ard for some of the answers which i wish to know.. But i know i wont be able to have any answer unless i wanted to go and know the answers.. anyway just hack wad i had just say.. u guys wont understand de.. cos is my language =) anyway happen to know my exam is not today but on wed.. i thot was today and i stays overnight yest n just now to chiong my studies la.. stupid me.. luckily my fren tels me tat.. arbo i go sch later n pai seh.. but still gonna study until wed den holidays.. kinda long man.. how i hope is today den just finish it off.. happily just go and find jobs.. hopefully earn lots of $ den go for trips.. shiok man.. =)

[x]chris

*hmmm

super boring and sian now.. No show, no mood to study also.. =( feeling hungry.. but lazy to go out have dinner.. Nobody at home too.. this kind of loneliness sux.. Well.. this few days i have a weird kind of feeling in me.. It's like kinda those falling in someone.. haiya i oso dunno.. anyway forget it man.. oh ya.. whoever out there got any jobs remenber to tell me.. thanks =) tml gonna go gym man.. it's been a long time i nv had a work up le.. though i wanted to put on weight but meanwhile i still have to maintain certain shape and not 'FAT' =)

[x]chris

*hmmm

woo-hoo

Had my half an hour slp this morning only.. luckily i'm able to wake up and go for my exam.. But what make me piss off is the weather man.. is raining damn heavily la.. den making me feel sleepy even more when i doing exam.. i dunno y i still stoning when i'm doing exam today.. i was like unable to think and dunno how to do.. sad.. but honestly this paper is hard for me.. maybe i didn't prepare much for maths.. =( Oh... still gonna study for later man.. actually i enjoying studying.. maybe i shd start studying one month before ya? but too bad.. i love to react in last min study.. gosh.. i think i had a cold man.. perhaps lack of slp and cos of the weather ba.. too bad. i'm a PIG i still need my at least 12hrs slp..

Well.. anyway i pray tat whoever study wif me till late... And see them studying until so serious just wan to have good grades... sacrifying slp.. i pray tat god will bless them in their health and will have good result.. =) Afterall, everyone can enjoy playing after exam and wif good results.

[x]chris

*tired

Gosh.. damn damn super tired man... die.. today is the last day to study n chiong for my EM3A le.. haix.. i'm not worry can pass but worry whether can i score not man.. i had my 3hrs slp yest n went to sch for revision class den after tat went for bball.. OMG.. i think just now i play until cant stand & feel like crying man.. totally no strength to jump at all la.. later still have to study.. ArrrhHHH.. how? i hate it man.. hopefully i wont fall aslp.. if not i think i'll be waking up at 4plus tml.. den ended up no time to study.. till this time, i just realise tat the time really files damn fast.. less dan 40hrs to my exam man.. god.. pls save me.. =))

[x]chris