Sad..

Just ended my 19th birthday.. Maybe this is the worse birthday i ever have?? Cos last year on my 18th i made a wish and it comes true on that night.. N i have something which i want it in mind and it was bought for me and touches my heart.. I swear that so far onli 1person touches my heart and entering to my heart and mind.. But this year nth special on this day.. happen to be alone.. Nth much i can do.. Though i wishes someone to celebrate on my b'day.. But...... Haix.. Maybe that's fate between us? I do not know whether i have anymore chances in my life.. But i will sure make every single moment 'we' have together.. Perhap no one can replace that.. I gonna say sorry to all gals out there.. I just cant put away my feeling for 'her' Anyway i made a wish on this 19th b'day.. Hope it will come true ba.. till my 20th b'day will come through? During this time i still cant believe everything just ended so fast..

Hope to express my feeling out and i will feel better..

Once again, i misses and love her always still...
TO BE CONTINUE.. TML... (EMO stage)

Part 1 & Part2 (17/01/2007)

Part1...
Thank bro for getting me ipod nano.. Actually quite surprise that he will get me ipod nano.. Maybe this is the greatest gift i have from him this 17years. but really thankful to him.. Earning his hard pocket money and get me something..

Part2..
I just feel very emo out of sudden.. Happen to think of the past when i was waiting for my brother to be off from work.. I was in bugis walking and touring around bugis junction... Happen to walk pass the new-print corner and 'WE' use to have our meal at V8 cafe where we'll have fantastic & delicious meal when we are loaded.. Remenbered 'WE' use to share our fish & chip and chicken cutlet and sharing 'her' strawberry float? After meal, 'she' will sort of pulling me for new-print.. N we'll pose at wadever pose we can think of.. When i say dun wan, i just like the way she show her sadness on her face.. Am i bad?? haha.. haix... but all this just disappear so fast.. i may never have this chance anymore.. hmm.. Talking about this, i suddenly miss the mango sago 'WE' love.. should i go for that tml alone? Btw miss the last year of this day.. 17/01/2006.. think me & her is happily outside after our work.. Den tml morning 'she' wake up early to make her 'master' sandwiches with extra ham on the egg and cheese with mayo on top.. love it man... Really miss the old days.. But after all i will always remenber the happiness we had.. N our 18/01/2006 and the promises i HAVE(now too) for her..
TO BE CONTINUE... (tml)

Part 1 and Part 2

Part 1...
well.. Recently i had a dream.. Dream appear of 2 person.. It seems like the 2 person is kinda impt to me.. Regardless how hard i want to forget them, i just cant do it.. Everytime i feel lonely, eventually i think of 'her'.. and everytime i wish someone to talk to, i hope 'he' is there.. giving me advise.. I onli can sae that i reali miss him for this 5years or 6years.. But during this 5 to 6 years.. 'she' replace the feeling i have lost frm him.. which is the real 'LOVE' which i always want.. I dunno why they just happen to be in my dreams.. Does it really imply or letting me noe they are the important person in my life and 'she' replacing 'him'? In addition, telling me that 'she' is part of my life hinting frm 'him'? No matter wad i wish or i hope that i can still be wif the person i love in remotest corner, given a last chance.. Let it be a stories between us..

Part 2...
Erm.. today after sch went to town wif show(jia hua) and jay(me).. lol... firstly went to sp find him, kinda curious why the sch got those thing like MRT liddat de door which need card to scan but ended up never use and put that for fun liddat.. hmm.. we went to far east finding my project stuff then to vivo for shopping.. (for show onli) In the mid of shopping, we found out that why got so many 'batteries' everywhere la.. worse come to worse, we saw one guy like 20plus holding hand and intimate with a sec gal like sec3 liddat.. OMG!! we totally cant believe it la.. That guy is pervert for sure.. haha..

ok.. end of blog..
Oh ya.. I hope that i can be born in 29feb instead.. =)

Firstly, i wan to congratulate my buddies vince and yew chin.. =) Feel happy for them.. Reason one of them started to 'fa se' le.. Busy dating girlfriend le siaz.. Second one... Finally, that couple talk things out properly and went through the misunderstanding.. Glad helping them and they finally have their happiness.. =)) But as for me....... haiz.. let that be a wish and hope for me ba.. I think i gonna be lonely more le... cause every fri we'll meet up and go out or play.. now they got their happiness ahead, i think i gonna be lonely and cannot be accompany by them le.. sad. =( But i rather suffer that than see them sad or wad.. See them happy i think of my past.. Can imagine how happy they are la.. IF i ever have a chance to go back as before.. That's definately the best life i ever have.. cause that's wad i'm waiting for, hope for and wish for.. being now and future ba.. But 1 thing that all guys wanted to know beside me is that why all gals onli think for themselve and being selfish? scare themselve bring burden for them, think they will neglect their guy? But i wan to say.. no matter wad ur guy will stand by ur side being in trouble, problem or wad.. willing to understand as long as u tell them the truth or stress u having in wadever u r doing.. u wan noe y? Reason because they really really love u.. They trust u, respect u.. =) Am i right? buddies? and all the guys out dere?? So why not talk with them, i'm sure they willing to share the burden with u.. IF they really love u.. In addition, think for their feeling.. =))

Emo...

Haix.. feeling emo and sad now.. izzit out of sudden? maybe ba.. My mind and heart feeling terrible after seeing something.. Why?? why must it be i'm the one suffering from all this? Why can't i have a peaceful life with.... Am i very demanding? Not gud? All what really is the answer? i really hope that i can know the real answer.. Why out of sudden, everything just change so fast? Why a person must be so selfish and only think for themselve and not the close ones or love ones? izzit so hard just to understand them? Maybe times plays a major part of our life? Have a person really think hard enough just to feel and understand when ur belove ones or ur closer person left u out of sudden? Maybe just like a real life or daily life, the person u love once, or love have left u? Maybe in separation? death? divorce? break up? Our heart feels how bad? kind of hard to accept it.. but the person who subject to part, have they really thought of understanding the other feeling? If they r part from death.. i'm sure they themselve also wish their close ones and love ones will remenber him or her always because he or she still LOVES their love ones.. But just don't really understand why people tends to escape it and not giving it another try? Worse is when their love ones don't even know why.. sometime thinking whether izzit that i'm not gud enough? demanding? or whatever.. I really really don't know and understand.. =(

Haix.. Never go to sch early in the morning and miss this whole week maths lesson.. Went in the afternoon for presentation.. Everything seems smoothy, hopefully able to get high marks for this presentation ba.. After sch went to hospital alone.. In the train, mind is going wild and keep thinking of the past.. kind of emo n sad.. Don't really know y everything in my life change so sudden without a slim chance or miracle. Don't really understand what is the reason behind it la.. Every night dreaming the same old thing.. What it really going to tell me? Another chance? perhaps in my dreams onli? I really don't know.. Oh ya, wanted to buy the whole black sandal(havaianas) but too bad no stock and not coming in anymore.. hopefully i can get it somewhere ba..