status: Miserable..

well.. i just wanna say there's a will, there's a way.. There's a chance, there's a hope. somehow i hope myself being happy forever. Wanting the life i have now.. can i? i don't wish to see the door closing right infront of me and giving me a little dim light frm the side of the door. I hope it's open. I don't wish to walk to doors with lock where i already have the door unlock infront of me with my only key. I manage to hold the key that long. I don't wish to throw it away or to lose it. I chosen that particular key and door among all those i want in my life. So to say, i can't bear to lose the key i'm holding. i lost it once, perhaps twice. therefore i really don't wish to lose it again. no matter what. i will find it back as it's my only key.