ARrrrhhH.. Finally got time to tell my feeling.. But i'm not gonna say any of it.. Too tired.. Just came back frm my "fierce" & "tough" run and staircase jump training.. Woohoo.. will i have even better fitness as ever or now? lol.. Will know soon... ^^

catch up my next post soon.. (will tell u smth abt married person.. N y i saw so many "batteries around" )

chris

Hmmm.. If u have a person who u really fall for so much.. whatever she says u trusted her lots.. Willing to be like what the world saying guys r like ABCDEFG? meaning A Boy Can Do Everything For Gal.. yupp.. Then happen that one day u actually find that she fall for someone and u urself just keep in silence not to question her until she ask for a breakup? Firstly, I, myself trusted her? Secondly, dun judge thing by the covering?

Well, from the above saying.. Alot ppl just think that i'm silly or wadever.. I just dunno how to explain to u guys.. ONLI if u guys put yourself in my shoes for that.. Honestly speaking, i did try.. But i just cant.. Just like u guys lost ur beloved ones or ur precious ones.. N if u happen to wait for something so long.. will u ever give up just like that? The world is round, So it's the same that we dunno the future.. we do noe every second the world is changing.. Maybe ppl feeling change like the world? But is possible to repeat history i'm sure.. No one noes that..

chris...

*Back*

Hmmm.. i'm back again.. Time really really passes too fast man.. It's 117days le.. Anyway, i hope to know why in this world there is dreams? N so wad u have a dream in ur slp? izzit a reality or just satisfaction show or moment for us? Sian.. even it might turn out to be a reality, how long must we wait for that? even is a satisfaction, r we told in the dreams to chase after our dreams? In this world, will both person have a kind of the same dreams? n appear to have the same dreams? In fact, i experience once before.. Perhaps the probability might be significant ba? But does that mean again, Will it comes true? Maybe it will but just that we ourselves do not know? Izzit just like the dreams we have on our birthday wishes or like our ambition? If really is, i think it will come true ba? As long as we follow that dream or hint given by the 'dream'. Just that we ourselves want that to come true not.. N maybe we also need to have fate in order to come true? Oh.. talking about dream.. i had a long dream just now.. just like a full version of show.. I dun really know why i dreamt of 'that' cos i nv think of it before i slp, cos i just reali too tired.. But strange to say that i dreamt the whole families in there... It definately will be a gud dream for me if it really come true ba.. After all.. wad i think is that.. we still need to go after our dreams in order for it to be succeed or come true.. Anyway i had a best moment of that in my dreams too.. Maybe is kind of satisfaction for my heart ba?? =)


chris

*Missing*

Haiz.. after so long finally got the time to blog again.. Rather missing the feeling i have in the past.. Everyday hoping the day will be back.. Believing that as long as i never given up any hope, there is still hopes around.. Recently, went to find my driving card.. Happen to see me and her photos.. it just make my heart feel sad.. meanwhile missing her real lots but just nth that i can do.. Can anyone tell me wad can i do just to let her know wad i'm feeling and words to let her know? So wad if i misses her? Do i ever have the ability just to make her have a little thought in her mind? or happen that my images can cross through her mind out of a sudden? Looking at the neo-print we have.. starting frm the very very first neo-print after my competition.. i went to town and find her cos she was shopping around for her new year clothes.. Remenbered that's the first neo-print we have.. While days goes, lesser n lesser neo-print we had together le.. haiz.. I remenbered we have a album and wanted to fill them full.. but....... Anyway i had all those wonderful, sweet, cute, modeling or etc neo-print putting in my own album.. Perhap those will let me see it everynite? haiz.. till now.. i have not study yet.. wonder will i pass.. I just really miss her alot and dunno why keep thinking of her when i started study.. hopefully she's doing well wif her studies..

Missing her..

Haix.. just came back from compro exam.. I"m damn sad la.. Because during the exam she keep crossing in my mind.. =( I just not in the mood to do my exam.. After the exam.. Frens ask why my eyes so red? did i cry? shed tear? i really really dunno.. But before going for exam, saw them just beside my table.. My heart really sink at that very very 1st moment.. Seeing ur love ones with someone, heart really hurt lots.. Seeing them together, remind me n her in the past.. we use to be together in studying and all.. but now.... Is those promises from her really is just a lie? Wanting to be with me forever and the 3words coming out from her mouth de 'I LOVE U'? Really is true in ur heart and feeling when u say that? Or just to make me feel secure and happy? Why till now, u still cant feel the true love and feeling i have for u? But no matter wad.. until now.. i have never give up on u.. i just wan to wait for u as the way i waited 2years ago.. I believe true love r meant to me there always as long as i dun give up.. I dunno to believe in fate, destiny or wad.. but for now i just trust my heart and the sincere, true feeling i have for u.. I just wan say that i have 留下的承诺每一封简讯 传出的思念都对你説（我爱你）means I love you代表着我 离不开你每分每秒 每一个声音只有你撒峤 会让我微笑（我爱你）只对你説I will love you and forevermore.
... SArang hae yo... (prawn)

Part1 & 2

Part1...
Yesh.. i finally is top in class le.. but just one of the module.. =X Will i get my GPA more than 3.5? We'll see.. and getting all my module at least an A? Think maybe is possible?? We'll see then.. =) Hmmm.. sian.. Tml is compro written exam le.. 30% siaz.. if i get full mark confirm pass le.. But i haben even touches it or revise la.. how? gonna fail? or burning midnight oil? But i'm just too tired to study now la.. Sian tml have to get up early for my Sport & Wellness.. sian la.. Maybe i gonna repeat this module cos of poor attendance.. how?? just because of this module repeat?? damn it.. But i gonna pass this module no matter wad.. =)

Part2...
Hmmm.. Wondering whether is she studying my notes that i stay out for like 4hrs in a tiring state and did the compro notes for her?? sian la.. i was like freaking tired after tonning outside seeing couple celebrating for their love ones.. den me, norman and yew chin just simply went out in the middle of nite to explore the sentosa beach.. =) N the beautiful stars i saw.. Damn nice la.. sad.. unable to go wif........ Hope tml she got do well and able to do her test ba.. What i can do is just doing all i can.. Haix.. honestly.. dunno why i still think and misses her still.. i forcing myself to forget but i just cant do it.. N why i just do so much thing and still care for her so much?? can she feel it? cherish it? Even she know, so wad? touches her heart? still got chance?

Haix.. dunno la.. anyway if U really read my blog.. i just wan u know, i keeps u and love u as much as before.. N no matter wad i promise to wait and i really will.. i never have ever break any promises.. I dunno whether izzit because of any misunderstanding or wadever.. i really dun understand.. but what i can say is that my heart break and hurt lots with all this.. Until now, i dun really know why.. N is just too fast without any turnback or chance between us to clarify and all.. how i hope 1 day i can just cross over ur mind and heart.. letting u know the sincere and true love i have for u and u have a thought of me somehow.. N feel that i really love u that much..
I love and misses u lots..

Sad..

Just ended my 19th birthday.. Maybe this is the worse birthday i ever have?? Cos last year on my 18th i made a wish and it comes true on that night.. N i have something which i want it in mind and it was bought for me and touches my heart.. I swear that so far onli 1person touches my heart and entering to my heart and mind.. But this year nth special on this day.. happen to be alone.. Nth much i can do.. Though i wishes someone to celebrate on my b'day.. But...... Haix.. Maybe that's fate between us? I do not know whether i have anymore chances in my life.. But i will sure make every single moment 'we' have together.. Perhap no one can replace that.. I gonna say sorry to all gals out there.. I just cant put away my feeling for 'her' Anyway i made a wish on this 19th b'day.. Hope it will come true ba.. till my 20th b'day will come through? During this time i still cant believe everything just ended so fast..

Hope to express my feeling out and i will feel better..

Once again, i misses and love her always still...
TO BE CONTINUE.. TML... (EMO stage)